warning: long rant ahead

last day of summer... uni starts
stressed mentally and physically
don't know what's happening, not like there's heaps of things to do
maybe it's the effect of day to day outings for the past 2 wks
maybe it's the sudden realisation of the need for a goal in life
or rather... i need to move on, get a grip with what i really want to achieve
i think i have kind of purposely put "growing up" at the back of my mind
i have push aside reality for far too long now
been doing crazy stupid things... hanging out, going out late, sulking over trivial little matters
i guess it's really time to think about my future (which is not very far off since i'm finishing my degree in like... um... 4 mths!?)
woo... there goes my uni life... 4 and a bit yrs of mucking around
ai... getting old... forced to face reality... the real world.

harsh reality

it's an accepted fact that not everyone will like u
however, it is quite another thing to know that someone dislikes u
especially when u don't really know them or u think ur on good terms with them
life is getting more complicated each day
people are simply just too good at pretence

別人

同樣的燈,點燃這個黃昏,我毫無疑問面對自己的天真
留言的人,沒出聲...我還有的,有沒有可能
想問候,或只是不小心打錯了?
為什麼我要勇敢,將失去看得過份簡單
明知你心裡有別人,怎麼我不肯承認
我以為不聞不問,是遺忘你最快的過程
眼淚,比想像中難忍...
人來人往,天黑了,我還記得,世界上除了你沒別人
了解我不是真的習慣一個人...
為什麼我要勇敢,將祝福當作我的責任
接受你心裡有別人,令我都微笑的人
我不想弄假成真把堅強當作我的本能
隱瞞,是最深的傷疼...
你輕輕在對街向我揮手,我真的感動
就算是難過都有種心酸溫柔
你還處處在意我,可惜不是在你愛的人是我的時候
為什麼我要勇敢遇見了也不能瀟灑轉身?
總有天我不再虔誠,再沒有口是心非的成分
你將只是陌生人...

love...

Love Is A Rush Of Wild Wind
The Sun To The Summer Rose
Or It's A Blowing On A Distant Track
And When It Goes, It Goes...

Every now and then...

Heard a really really old song on radio... "Every Now & Then"
brought back memories... reminiscing the old days

我會好好的　花還香香的　時間一直去　回憶真美麗
我是想著你　一直想著你　你在我心底　變成了秘密
到現在還是深深的　深深的愛著你　
是愛情的　友情的都可以　
那是我心中的幸福　我知道它苦苦的
要給你遠方的祝福　我知道它苦苦的

Every now and then, I do think about you...

recent addiction

downloaded a long time ago... but recently i'm addicted to it
um... is it that time again...

<<戲中有氣>>

我會笑　受騙仍如常扮笑　
再指責與黑臉 你都會說再見　
我早放棄了　無奈導火一發再不止
我　勝在最會演戲　這笨透女子處在劣勢
未流露心情　難委屈到涕淚塗地
來贈你　一聲恭喜　一臉幸福　掩蓋我痛悲　
恭喜她替代同遊蜜月旅程　一世待你好快樂至死　
然後我淪為憶記
　
任我多好心地　這樣受傷總也會歎息　
多麼好戲未藏住那一腔怨氣　
沒有怪你察覺不到這種心理
其實早交足戲　多不想你走　扮作不緊也不理

愛錯了　就算滿肚悲憤　
撐過了　仍然能瀟灑轉身
未能懷念你　愁城自困　更有失身份
讓我揮灑的獻技　飾演分手 角色　永別你

summer holiday continues

port macquarie never fails to make me happy AND sunburnt haha
lucky summer school has 2 weeks break in between otherwise i don't think i can survive ^_____^

on another note... y do u always make ppl worry about u
i think ever since the day i know u i've been worried
mmm... hope u'll really grow up and be sensible

尋找(我的)獨角獸

樹上大鳥　與風神在說話
地上巨獸　寄居解語花下
怪獸四出　冒險找個他　
我也參加　找我心中　那白馬
落下大雪　約火龍熱舞吧
但是沒法　與他撐到初夏
再怪那位　亦想找個家
得我孤身　搬進仙境　都可怕
我信我注定有他　我信空想創造神話
獨角獸也會找得到　只不過兜兜轉才碰見吧
誰說這世界沒有他? 我要親手創造神話
在結尾我會很快樂 路上雖有風沙
人魚卻唱著　不用怕

順著瀑布　與精靈在散步
逐段逐寸　去數走過多少路
那裏會碰見他　無需河童預告
真相再灰　都可以空想　我未老
我信我注定有他　我信空想創造神話
獨角獸也會找得到　只不過兜兜轉才碰見吧
誰說這世界沒有他? 我要親手創造神話
在結尾我會很快樂
伴著所愛歸家　床前說故事　不用怕