longing...

longing to tell u what happened tonight
longing to hear u tease me about how i am incapable of taking care of myself
to say i shouldn't drive if i don't know the way around
to say i should just forget everything and sleep
to ask me out for a drink or for lunch later
longing to hear u laugh at the other end of the receiver
longing to hear ur lame jokes about that "friend" of urs who sounds just like me
but i cannot. cannot.
i couldn't even bring myself to say hi and start a casual conversation over msn
all i do is pathetically sit in front of the computer
staring at ur status, wondering if ur working or play games
wondering if ur alone
wondering if u would wonder what i'm doing
i thought i was cured. seriously.
but i'm not. i'm not.