thing(s) i hate

waiting for phone call
being forced to eat
cold weather
seagulls
ambiguity
capsicum & celery (basically vegies with 'distinct' taste)
false rumours
being ignored
insects
red jelly babies/gummy bears

i'm grumpy coz i know i was being ignored purposely

in need for a red 'fragile' label

somebody goes
somebody stays
dreaming is good
reality is bad
sometimes one eats too much
sometimes one doesn't eat at all
everything feels wrong
the rice is too oily, the vegies r too soggy
u know what?
i think she's gonna cry soon

烈女

很想裝作我沒有靈魂　但你讚我性感
很想偷呃拐騙的勾引　完了事便懷孕
然後便跟你　跟你到家裡去掃地
讓情敵跟我講恭喜　放棄事與非與魔鬼在一起

烈女不怕死　但憑傲氣　絕沒有必要呵你似歌姬　
知你好過了便要分離　沒有骨氣只會變奸妃　
烈女不怕死　又何懼你 不會失去血性和品味　
知你一向以我去攝期　迎合你便令名譽掃地　呸呸!!

本應想我變做你類型　讓你與我有景
只可惜得到你的尊敬　全因肯當佈景
無謂被選美　逼你待我好我寧願傷悲
若然排在榜中最多三四　我縱像儲妃違背了我天地

oohh i loveeee miriam hehe

其實我從沒法接受...

going to Japan for holidays
maybe with him, maybe with family
suddenly remembered our plan
the things u promised
move on... move on...

曾在約會時候有某某撞破 然後個個合力將你我關係世界性轉播
前事現在不算話題後誰亦從未道破 但我偏嚮往舊日被人話你話我

人物有 場地有 緣份卻跟你沒有 只要讓你愉快便夠自願鬆手
就算始終很喜歡 也太難開口 面對你有女朋友 我又怎麼跟他搏鬥
聚會想你亦無助也怕有罪過 還擰轉背避開了你 可避免了貨比貨
其實我 從沒法接受放得低這"朋友"

熱愛已不再擁有 舊愛的本份誰想安守
不想再配合你扮自然當密友 閒話然後無話想兜圈遠走

如若日後婚禮的那天 其實無謂預我

lightheadedness

0130-0730
6hrs non-stop drinking n girly chit chat
reminiscing, reflecting, analysing, reasoning.
conclusion reached, i'm such a weirdo ;P

0830-1330
sleep

1331 - now
lightheadedness due to excess consumption of alcohol and/or lack of daily 10hr intake of sleep

p.s. my bed didn't fit into the lift, stupid delivery ppl *bleh* ><

rip mr strawberry

he's dead. after 6mths.
miss lemon is lonely.
must find her a new buddy.
let's find a miss orange.
no more mr. no more strawberry.

十個他不如你一個

我試過責備自己討厭你, 但是我想還是未及永不捨棄
皆因不過憧戀, 自亂到猶如做戲
"不可到尾" 旁人也屢度說起...
太回味那時, 要耗盡才終止
以後無論再找十個他不相似
甚或要懷念到再來一次
仍然極度在乎你, 但是我想回頭亦是惹我生氣
現實誰講道理 卻仿似做戲
離愁了愛沒有死 不過憧戀...

無奈這一切決定似是玩笑
難明是每每死心但變成更傷心
沒法跨障礙似是跌落彼此隔膜裡
再會時候未挽留在無言中聚散
失望過仍懷念共你的往日歡笑
只盼共你重聚時候再意會一笑

Fragile, Handle with Care

had an accident.
如你用眼神　在秘密說話　何以沒法縮短距離直接地對話?
fragmented or distorted?
可笑嗎愛你愛到化　早知本領有限難過你這一關
相擁過, 困在你那五指山樂極便會生悲
只怪我也太貪玩...
有力去恨你也有力氣掛念你 這個負擔擔不起
你令我悟到, 這隻被放棄的棋能重生心必先要死
i'm not as tough as u think. i think i need a red "fragile" label
喜歡你卻忘記要你允許
求復合為怕空虛 不過愛你更空虛
忘記問一早分手的你會當我是誰...
就算心很痛　這顆心一早掏空
就算痛得要生要死都假裝沒有空
it's all so blurry so sudden. i was in shock. i needed someone.
要是我先開口很需要你逗留 告白有用還是根本沒有
真的想哭...
my heart is not that strong afterall.
如果哀傷都也可伴隨眼淚點點滴去
我抱著頭肆意失聲痛哭難道有罪
真不想哭, 真不想哭
他怎可以和別人抱?
心知肚明他想我好堅忍卓絕可鍛煉到
not strong yet still know what's good for all.
再沒餘地繼續纏繞...
談情一世發現願望極渺小
留下一點距離回味猶自心跳
歡樂今宵 虛無飄渺
那樣動搖 不如罷了
淚水忍得到.
i'm so tired.
就當一起發過夢　喜愛你只因迷信

CHAOS

a frd reminded me of a little saying i used to repeat in highschool

我好煩惱啊, 因為我無煩惱... hehehe

i used to be so carefree, my only trouble is why my life is so "trouble-less"
but look at me now...
weighed down by so so many things
uni, career, future plans, relationships etc etc
maybe i jinxed myself.
i'm tired of all the expectations around me both from others and myself
i just don't seem to be myself anymore.
i think people started to see me differenly, for better or worse i don't know
what i know is the present 'me' have caused an indeterminate gap between myself and someone
somehow we know it's not meant to be; somehow we know it won't work
maybe it's not a one-sided decision; maybe the feelings r mutual, just that i can't get around admitting it
well it's over.

was complaining about how a certain someone won't leave me alone even after all these years
was so frustrated and annoyed that i wish he'd just disappear off the face of the earth right now
but shortly after, i realised i might be viewed the same way by another person
i might be just as annoying, just as stubborn, just as demanding
trust me, this relevation doesn't make my day
it makes me feel sick, to a point where i can physically throw up
i don't want to be viewed like that by anyone but how come i just can't do the right thing
maybe i shouldn't be so harsh on that person, maybe he's just the same as me
in a situation where he has no control over.
maybe...

why does life have to be so chaotic.
how i want to return to yr 7
when i was only 13;
when my life is still simple and i so carefree.

渴望
回到九年前
回到無憂無慮
未遇見你的我...

exhausted

i think i'm really getting old.
after a wk of partying i got sick T-T

been to
totoya; kingsley steakhouse; newtown cafe; rose bay; koh-ya; ripples

so tiring yet had great fun
thx for everything ^^

p.s. i had an embarrassing day today T-T

"心知肚明他想我好"

放手總會有苦衷, 所以我沒有激動
不要緊, 想得到的多數不能夠相擁
愛未能使你動容, 努力原來沒有用
心會死, 喜歡不等於有福和你一起

和誰都不相戀, 不會再挑選
為你哭完就算, 讓我從今一個人
叫別人去愛我... 是為我好?
既是如此好心地, 我又為何被隔離
你若然真心怎可能沒轉機
不敢問你...

i wish...

every year my b'day wish doesn't come true so i refrained from making any big wishes on birthdays...
however my wishes do come true when i don't wish for them on my b'day
how weird.
now i wish that u would at least say happy birthday to me this year
i am making a wish now so please let it come true
i know i know...
i'm being stupid. ;P