Am I Still in the Dark?

在別人面前我總顯得大方
說還是朋友
或許...只是一個假象

無意發現

原來有些感覺

沒有發生不等如是錯覺

hilarious

that would be one of the funniest fun i've seen in life.
ha-ha-haaaa.

後來的我們一直都遇不上, 彷彿都在避開某一些地方
在人群中都走的特別匆忙, 怕一不小心就認出對方
或許在某一天, 某個街上, 無意中擦肩感覺出對方
我們只需自然不會有人看穿...

But I love you

I don't wanna love you. But I do.
I really hate this, it's so painful
I don't wanna love you. But I love you. But I love you.
Don't wanna hang on to you
I want to forget everything. Everything.
I don't wanna miss you. But I miss you. But I miss you.
How many times have I promised myself not to look back
How many times have I said not to fall back into the trap
But it's obsession, it's like I'm possessed
I can't go on like this
I know. I understand.
But why? Why am I like this.
Why can't I step out of it. It's so painful everyday.
I know there is no resolution.
The wound is getting deeper each day.
Time past but there are still more pain.
Who said time heal all wounds?

想要把你忘記真的好難　
思念的痛在我心裡糾纏
朝朝暮暮的期盼　永遠沒有答案　
為何當初你選擇一刀兩斷
聽你說聲愛我真的好難　
曾經說過的話風吹雲散
站在天秤的兩端　一樣的為難　
唯一的答案　
愛一個人好難

obsession is an incurable disease.

maybe i shouldn't watch that drama
maybe i shouldn't draw a comparison between u and him
maybe he's not that like u
maybe it's just me imagining things yet again
but
how come all the things he said are so similar to u
how come all the things he does are so similar to u
his temper, his facial expressions, his personality, anything and everything.
does he think like u too?
if he does then i think i know the reasons why we are in this situation now.

well all these are just my own interpretation of the situation.
maybe it's all wrong, maybe i'm thinking too much
but how am i suppose to react when suddenly in the middle of the foreign drama i realised what u had said to me 1000 times before really means that and not what u told me

well, all's too late now. all's too late.

as i have told her, this cycle seems to go on forever.
i obsess, i forget
but when something happens and trigger my thoughts
i start obsessing all over again.
yes i know it's not healthy, i know i should grow up.
but somehow, i just can't.
i just can't.

一點一滴

城市太焦慮, 我們如何能面對?
前途未對, 愛情易退, 想起也很累...

說了愛你卻不懂善後
凌晨裡共你那相聚彷似流星
所珍惜的幾秒牽繫, 在午後會紮醒
平常偶遇你這種喜好未夠好, 我知道...

情感不可能靠醉倒...
其實你我已經相處得很徹底, 涉及愛情便見底
維持清醒不想把青春再浪費, 理性點不吃虧

願我胸懷大志, 亦無懼快樂還是容易碎, 去尋名利和伴侶
全部大時代的小女生, 總有我的小發奮
然後每日有些小發生, 總會記於心　
擁有我的點滴亦算很夠運
香檳飲過還是有過安慰

沿途又摘下蠟燭多一歲, 回味著日落日出的瑣碎
能讓我會想記的, 一點也吸引...

最怕還是醉倒不顧一切...

bored n tired

winter school makes me sick
chocolate makes me sick
even u make me sick
how sad can life get
who said life's good?

i'm probably too tired. should go to bed.

<<救生圈>>

願望並未實現　你已對我厭倦
現在就剩下一堆可悲畫面
我每秒也冀盼　可將光陰倒流
到你愛我當天
原來當天所有承諾一早消散不可兌現
從前童話終於給你親手破滅　
說穿了　
你只當我救生圈...
就拋出海再算.

le male

ur scent is on everyone i met today...
the one i walked past at the lights, the one i stood next to while lining up for lunch, even the guy at the conceige desk...
maybe it's the hot new fragrance for winter, maybe it's just me going insane imagining things

how long have i not seen u?
it's fate i think. 'we' must have ended for real this time
even when we are both right there, at that particular moment
we don't see each other.
even when we know we will be meeting, something will happen and the gathering will be cancelled, or the event changed...

i've always believed in fate. but is it fate or is it u hiding...
maybe i wouldn't want to know the answer.

遲兩秒能與你碰上麼?
只怕是你先找到我
但直行直過
天都幫你去躲
躲開不見我...

winter school

9-5.30
what more do i need to say.

i think i'm a little dizzy.

sydney (food) tour

ok i'm fully booked this wk hehe
cousins came from hk... n apparently i'm the designated "meal planner" LOL
shows my obsession with fooooood...
soo here goes our 'plan'

tue: wildfire --> french riveira
wed: rise omakase degustation
thu: gallileo --> max brennar --> maybe harry's
fri: cafe sydney --> bridge bar or hemmisphere or iceberg

luckily i'm only responsible for dinner onwards hehe i'm gonna soooo stuff myelf with food keke

side note, winter school started tmr... *blah*
oh-no-better-go-to-bed-coz-have-9am start
bahhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~
vvn is nooooot happi!

<<可惜他有女朋友>>

他都不算很有趣 為何我遇見別人都悶極入睡
碰見他總是自然談下去 讓人幻想可以後談下去結成伴侶
可惜他有愛侶 還可怎麼爭取 投契極 得不到世人的允許
常常望著 別人幸福 令我更唏噓
難道世界上美男 全部被捕? 漏網的跑到哪裡?
男生稍一可取全已是 某君的夫婿或愛侶
仍然像我的 未嫁的 又愛得起誰
唯一 符合理想的得七歲
他真的有點似我 旁人要是太悶時安靜地就坐
看見他今夜突然圍著我 話題像剪不斷地圍著我
我又怕什麼?
然而像我的 未嫁的 又會分到誰
誰想凡是舞會都單身去

not feeling good

moody.
depressed.
i wonder why.