spider web

i hate spiders
but i'm stuck in the middle of the spider web
the spider is gone
i'm still there
at times i felt like i've climbed out
but really i've just gone through 1 round

i really thought i'm ok
but that scene in the tv
that song in media player
that comment of his
all those reminded me of 'it' once again

i had a good day, good week in fact
but why am i not happy when i'm alone
i feel sad n lonely...
when will i be really free?