definition of .irony.

same event. different circumstances.
eye infection.
mid-morning. in car. on route for medical treatment.
two way road.
my car. ur car.
passenger seat. me. her.
normal sunglasses. covered up face. in hope that u won't recognise me.
short sighted-ness. blurry. in denial of accepting ur passenger.
lucky. dream come true for bumping into u whilst in car.
unlucky. we r not alone.
lucky. i can't see properly without my glasses.
unlucky. self-revelation yet again.

somethings i have accepted but some part of me still in denial

just realised that my dreams do indeed come true all the time
but how ironic at times like these when everything's changed.

未約定

so me
so pathetic
yet luckily
so past tense ;)

--->問你想不想吃飯 你也許今天想吃飯
從發問到回答 怎可以這樣慢 <---
我說好不好吃飯 從來沒說明那時間
魂遊丈外帶笑謀殺時間 等傍晚

浮雲伴著七色彩帶正親密地游泳
如何慢慢叫我脈搏寧靜
浮雲待定 花貓避靜 秒針兜轉 手機候命
韓劇漫漫 英超接應 遙控微暖 幕幕留情
紅茶入定 金魚蝶泳 晚空早到 街燈候命
門匙爛漫 窗花倒映 全宇宙正迎接你的回應

--->問你好不好吃飯 你說 你應該可吃飯
從雀躍到習慣 聲音美到極限
你說等一等你吧 回頭才約定我時間<---
明明就像聖誕來了讓我 等元旦

but somehow it still hurts a bit.

<<有人>>

難得有人待我這麼好, 如此照料週到
何事我又要讓人最苦惱?
明明知有人待我這麼好
如沒有信心接受到, 難道詐不知道比較好?
或者可以好友般跳陣舞...

怎去講極殘酷說話並無字眼恰當
閉著眼, 我亦明白暗戀的苦況
知你好, 當我陣腳亂一向能有你護航
要是我亦有心感激你
最好能讓你沒寄望

*pride*

the other day when i hit that button i actually i felt proud of myself
once and for all u will be out of my life
the only cure to addiction is ur own determination
i think i have enough this time to save myself
finally.

u have ur new friend, maybe i should concentrate on finding my new friend too
but then i'm satisfy with what i have right now
do i really want to develop anything more at this stage?
maybe i should just give it some time.
i'll be fine.

現在獨身亦不孤清, 不想如孩子般撒嬌
懇請放心, 從未怕沒人要, 樂於細選精挑

隨心　戀愛吧　永不超齡
順逆境仍在安心等待月老的回應
共理想的對象看星　
多晚亦有心情, 幾歲亦有心情

new favourites

<<愛瘋了>>
不夠完整... 你給的從來不夠完整
連一個語氣都無法確認
這種缺乏是什麼象徵?
我那麼的認真去思考你對我的認真
是多麼傷害... 結果始終是疑問.
我愛瘋了
我瘋到自己痛也不曉得
放棄了保護自己的責任
放棄了抵抗脆弱的天份
我不管了
我不管這傷口能不能癒合
選擇了你也許是錯的人...


<<猜不透>>
滿天的星星在閃爍點不亮心中的暖和
為什麼你不懂我的夢只是勉強笑了...
就像我們憑直覺走找不到同一個出口
從現在到心痛要多久?　還有沒有以後?
有時假裝沈默是否有點難受
到底期待像什麼, 一眨眼又讓心傷透...
關於你們手牽手?
還是關於你和我?


nice songs... touching >___<

spider web

i hate spiders
but i'm stuck in the middle of the spider web
the spider is gone
i'm still there
at times i felt like i've climbed out
but really i've just gone through 1 round

i really thought i'm ok
but that scene in the tv
that song in media player
that comment of his
all those reminded me of 'it' once again

i had a good day, good week in fact
but why am i not happy when i'm alone
i feel sad n lonely...
when will i be really free?

-someone to watch over me-

-quoted from an old frd

There's a saying old
Says that love is blind -
Still we're often told,
'Seek and ye shall find.'
So I'm going to seek
A certain lad I've had in mind.
Looking everywhere,
Haven't found him yet;
He's the big affair
I cannot forget.
Only man I ever
Think of with regret.
I'd like to add his initials to my monogram.
Tell me, where is the shepherd for this lost
lamb.
There's a somebody I'm longing to see
I hope that he
Turns out to be
Someone who'll watch over me.
I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood.
I know I could
Always be good
To one who'll watch over me.
Although he may not be the man some
Girls think of as handsome
To my heart he carries the key.
Won't you tell him please to put on some
speed -
Follow my lead -
Oh! How I need
Someone to watch over me.
Someone to watch over me.

to be alone

神經都死了
任何甜蜜都不可攻陷
全靠你我遇著誰 談什麼都已減七十分
誰來扶助一把也不信任

maybe i should take a break

reading wk

hehe 1 wk holiday for me...
totally forgot about BA reflective note
started at 1ish n finish before 2 haha what an achievement
well... that's coz i was rushing to go out ;p

went for coffee n dessert... then sing k... then dinner
the usual mucking around
was fun...hehe

in the mood to bake cake... but i think i shouldn't make so much noise in this time of the night (or day lol)
plus, i don't have the ingredients hehe
maybe tmr...

.friday night.

b'day party @ Neway
Gas
Kings Cross supper

saw some old faces, met some new ppl
tired but not sleepy (probably coz that latte @ 3.30am hehe)

the night started at 2030, ended at 0430
n at 0520 i'm still awake n typing away here...
um...
with this kind of sleep pattern, i'm gonna age real soon... >__<

nostalgic.
reminiscing the days when we used to go k and clubbing together
realised that u were not that bad after all
but yeh... no regrets. that's my policy... i do not regret the decisions i make
stubborn hey?
anyways, how r u doing in hk?
kinda missed ur constant nagging. n u know what?
i think ur the only one who can tolerate my sporadic "pissed-off-for-no-reason" tantrums ;p
best wishes.

氹我 ^^

要我歡歡喜喜, 閒來其實只要氹!
yes i'm easily satisfied...
just talk with me, play with me then i'll be happy ^^

1st of May

finally i've been through April
May... a new month, a new beginning
it's funny how feelings can change all of a sudden
a few weeks ago i still suffer at the sight of a certain person, particular when the person comes with an attachment
now i feel indifferent or to be honest, maybe just a tinge of curiosity to the appearence of 'the' attachment ;p
well... maybe this time is final
maybe it's not the beginning of another cycle :)

如何愛你也不對,原來要我豁出去
i have... and i think i'll do just fine
best wishes