9ine to 6ix

2 days of uni each wk is a damn good idea
BUT
9-6 is definitely inhumane...
how am i gonna survive
it's only the 1st day n i'm already switching off...
oh and did i mention the 200pgs of readings each wk?
arghh....>____<


醉了搖了骰盅, 又給老友再逼供
發我仍在苦戀中...
你何必猜中?

take care... sleep early

sometimes there is this type of person in your life
something more than just friends;
something less than a relationship...
but in your heart you'll always think about him/her and you do really care for them

for me, this type of person exists
however, no one knows that I care that much
coz... I'm too good at pretending and too bad at expressing myself
the most I would do is to tell them to
"take care", "sleep early", "add oil"...
yeh... that's my style of showing affection
so next time you hear me say those things...
you'll know that I care a lot about you
maybe far more than what you think

花迷戀

祈求小小先知可推測得到捉摸不到就臨時通知你我正在等你
若嫌身驅這摩重拍翼難高飛
來讓我承受你
能學到心不會死
但求一夜轉化成為密友的氣味
祈求小小先知可推測得到捉摸不到
通知你
那個我正在等你
來讓我做那位　
來日會共你可熱吻起...

where r u??

i wanna watch a movie
i want a coffee
i want a green tea parfait
i want the special delievered supper
i want the midnight drive
i want the random sms' in random hours
i want the stupid meaningless chats

when r u coming back my buddy... ;P
come back come back come back...
all the movies i wanna see r going off
come back come back come back...
hehehe...
come back come back come back...
it's 1.29am in the morning of a monday night
or a tuesday morning...
come back come back come back...
i'm bored
c o m e b a c k ! ! !

MR.

hey i don't think u know it
but i do believe in u...
i really do... ^^

-La Douleur Exquise-

1. The exquisite pain of wanting someone that you know you can never have, and knowing that you will still try to be with them. Has drug like effects.

2. The pain of loving someone that you know you can never have; by circumstance or subjective decision.

3. The exquisite pain of loving some unattainable.

Definition from UrbanDictionary.com

so bored i'm going for re-runs of S & C season 2... 2nd time round, it's still so true... but she freed herself... what about me?

Did I ever love Big? Or was I addicted to the pain - the exquisite pain of wanting someone so unattainable...

blue...

headache...
been sleeping too much
been staring at the mon too long
been litsening to too many sad songs

my horrible horrible mood swings are coming back
i feel sick n lonely n insecure

to top it all off, the thunder storm, the lightning... everything
ai...

port macquarie

Kirribilli --> Maroubra --> Chatswood --> Freeway --> Port Macquarie
lollies+ipod+speaker+Maccas+fuel+sleep
check-in --> change --> big oyster --> beach --> blockbuster --> coles --> liquer land
pool+spa --> "electric shock" man/mouse game *lol* --> shower --> cook
oysters+prawns+pasta w/ bacon, chicken, mushroom+wine+archer spri+candles+movie
movie x 3
sleep........
check-out --> blockbuster --> big oyster
lollies+chips+ipod+speaker+"ayers rock"+sleep+fuel+sleep+sleep
Port Macquarie --> Pacific Hwy --> Freeway --> Chatswood --> Maroubra --> Chatswood --> Kirribilli

*N.B. sunburnt once again >___<

明目張膽

揀偏僻角落坐
完全袒露就怕我全部被你看情楚
待你好,
只不過是幫我成為我愛演的一個我
其實未算太坎坷...

我如果想一世人和你過
平時就要企後幾吋去幻想, 別要摸...

若有一天公開明目張膽的愛
我怕會讓你太意外
我的愛只願縮到最小, 彷彿不存在
就算我最愛你, 情願好好遮蓋
化作了密碼不公開
我一向都慣自言自語沒別人愛
難道你發覺我志在, 就會肯滿足這期待?
如若我也有權愛
同樣我也有權不必被愛...

暗裡進行更自在, 不相戀誰會受害
但願盡情地種, 誰說花需要開?

若我一天公開明目張膽的愛
我怕會讓你太意外
我的愛只願縮到最小彷彿不存在
就算我最愛你, 情願好好遮蓋
我怕揭露了不精彩...
拆穿了總盼望誰在意...蜜月難再

如若你發覺有我在
就結束暗戀的時代
無謂去博你憐愛
明白叫你太煩的不是愛...

如若我也有權愛, 同樣我也有權揀怎樣愛...

changed?

had facial to revitalise my super dry skin from all the travelling
had a long long chat with princess K
thanks for the 'compliment' haha
u congradulated me on giving up and letting go
u said ur proud of me
but i just kept my mouth shut
yes it's true i can joke about it now
it's also true that i am not depressed anymore from delayed replies and the no responses
but r u sure that i've given up, that i've let go?
i am not sure myself...
but the one thing i know is -->
nothing will happen between us
coz
u know...
he doesn't want anyone now
ie. he doesn't want me

happy day

although i still have my neck pain
i had a great great day today
went to bondi n then neutral bay
so full...
had my all-time-favourite green tea parfait hehe
100% satisfied ^_______^ *yummmmy*

came home around 10ish n discover 2 packs of herbal pads for my neck~
thank u!!!!!! hehe... never knew anyone would care so much hehe... ^^

Chinese New Year

CNY's dinner really brings family together
although there's only me n grandma n aunt here in Sydney, we had a really good dinner
it's not the best food i had or anything
it's just the way grandma smiles and the way we talked that makes my heart warm
i just realised that it's been quite a while since i've taken her out to dinner
i think we have neglected her for a while
we always have our own business to attend to and forget that she too needs a little attention
family should always be #1 priority

*on another note... y doesn't koh-ya open on mondays!!! arghhh

is this u?

男孩的愛情都這樣膚淺
誰又可憐言行令人討厭
平時口花花卻又怯於迎戰
要到不瞅不睬　總在治療
男孩的愛情都這樣驚險
未能望見　糊糊塗塗入錯線
越是喜歡她卻又怕她回應 (?)
只要做朋友　極無面
能暗戀都歡喜　就算厚面皮
面對感情失去力氣
昨日我亦算得天下無敵

is this what ur thinking?

原來想要擁抱自己先要放得低

原來想要擁抱自己先要放得低
任何事也受刺激傷口怎去洗
仍期望與你再生等於自毀

從頭做人但求做甚麼都會放得低
為掛念往事而求生活了亦無謂
這番說話想相信到底　
但你令我一生固執也真前世...

out of sight

out of sight out of mind...
just realised it doesn't work this way
out of my sight but still in my mind
no communication whatsoever but... it's still there
so what am i suppose to do now?
i'm in no position to do anything right?

為何望來望去仍無下文 明明彼此有同感
提示很充足 但你的態度永遠不得要領
相戀要是有天命 都要等你來確認
盼望猶豫未決的情人回信 猶如行刑縣在半空

it's been such a long time already
i've already lost count of how many emotion roller coasters i've been on
how many times i said to myself "just let go"
but in the end
i'm still going round and round in a circle
can you feel what i feel?

i know what's good for me and what's not
but how come i can't do it?

i'm back now...
so what will you do?
maybe u'll continue to keep ur silence...