...nostalgia...

in this time of stress i'm having weird dreams everynight
dreams about u...
in the middle of the night, memories are brought back
and tell u what? it hurts... it really does
u've put a stop to everything
maybe the situation is really getting out of hand
maybe it's just we r both too busy
or maybe there is a certain someone in between us already
our relationship just came to a halt all of a sudden
no more communication
no more contact
even when we meet there's just the occasional nod n smile
we are back to where we began
a little bit more than strangers, a little bit less than frds...
--> 'acquaintance' should be the word
yeh, 'acquaintance'... how ironic...
who will know after all these months we will resort to being acquaintances once more
i thought it will be different this time
but i'm wrong
it's just like the game we used to play when we r young
'snake n ladder'
i nearly climbed to the top, just one more space until i win...
but the snake at that last space made me slip
slip to the very bottom...
slip to where i have to start all over again...
climb up n up n up.... all over again
but u know? i don't think i can do this anymore
it's tiring... really tiring...

although i don't want to start all over again
i still miss u
i still miss...
how u nagged at me for not eating properly
how u sighed when i told u i skipped dinner for chocolates n sweets
how u kept me company when i was bored
how u teased me for everything i said or did
how u helped me when i asked
the drinks, the lunches, the dinners, the movies and the not-at-all productive sessions
i miss everything and anything

damn... i just can't get over it can i...
*sigh*