-if it's not meant to be-

learning to accept...
if it's not meant to be, no matter how much effort i put in it, it still wouldn't happen
it's just like pushing against a brick wall, at the end i will only hurt myself
i admit this is by far the toughest challenge for me so far in life
i'm blocked for so long and i can't get out of it and i can't do anything about it
i'm not in a position to whinge coz my life has been great... some might even say it's too good to be true... no obstacles whatsoever...
the only thing i can't get in life is - u -

sometimes i don't understand why it won't work out
i always say there r too many things to take into consideration and i always have doubts
but at the end i always hope that we could just forget about everything and just follow my heart
but no... this is reality... this is how life works
u r bound to have regrets...

it's not like i don't care about u and i think i'm not imagining u cared about me too
but the circumstances, the timing... everything... indicate that this is not meant to happen
maybe some other time, some other place when we r older and know what we want
when we r not so sceptical about relationships, when we have more faith
when we r more mature
maybe someday... who knows...
the only thing i know is - nothing will happen now

i know we will both find more suitable others
but i also know that u'll always have a place in my heart
a place for a someone that will always be more than a friend
but for now...
good-bye dear
good-bye